update...

Okay So I haven't posted here in a long time... thanks facebook... aanyway I was just feeling the need to type something here and make sure I don't lose this blog because its got a lot of my life on it ... especially during a very transisional part of my life and completely different from the one I live now.... who knew that things could change so quickly??? Its wierd.  I look back at my life and while that one was far more easy I think that this one is far more worth it. 

Its difficult though because Jon is remarried now with a kid on the way... ben has been in a solid relationship for a year... rachelle is remarried (raise your hand if you are shocked) Alana has always had eric (even though he's been temporarily detained) and Scott has a shiny new girlfriend that makes him have even less available time (no I haven't met her) I'm thrilled for him and he has definately put in the alone-time but it makes me feel like odd-man-out.  Like there is something wrong with me that I haven't even had a long term relationship (okay I did, a couple of months after I left jon, but I'm not counting that one cuz it shouldn't have ever happened)   It is what it is and my logical side knows that, but my stupid soft girly side says "maybe alana is right... maybe I am to picky." 

 I don't want to think that though... I just DONT WANT TO SETTLE ... then again...  Alana usually says it when she's trying to get me to date one of her friends.... I guess she might be just a teensy bit bias.

alright. I'm going over to the other blog.  you should too.... I've got some funny for ya....