For the love...

Oh Geeze... I'm not sure about this ... I guess we'll see. I'm scared its gonna fail but I gotta try...

I'm now pretty positive that Amy is the only person who reads my blog due to the lack of comments but then again I tend to post a little more than the rest of you... like 900% more LOL!!

SO the impossible has happened. Starting to seem like I should no longer refer to anything as impossible because then it happens and I look retarded. I'm gonna go lick windows after I finish this post ;-) try and get THAT image out of your head....


Am I rambling??? It seems like I might be rambling....


Anyway so Alana and I have been texting each other and of course talking to me in her blog via the refer-to-what-I've-said-method that we both use (Shit. I am rambling...) AND its looking more and more like we might actually try hanging out again. The first test is coming up on saturday when we will be at the Young Dubs concert. I'm a little paranoid and really unsure if this is gonna be fly... I don't know if she can be trusted (Team Jon?) and I don't want to hear about how absolutely in LOVE love love LOVE her and eric are. Its a little bit like when you are broke and eating mac and cheese but someone keeps telling you how fabulous the steak is, ya know?? I'm happy for her and I hope-please-god-let-it-be-true that its as wonderful as she says BUT it's wierd!!!

For instance I know Seth and Amy are in love with each other and happy together but Amy isn't always TELLING me ... So are Deb and Jeff, and so are Dave and Ness and I'm happy for those couples, really and for truly... but I like seeing it for myself instead of being TOLD... the way Dave takes care of the baby and lets ness have a break or the way seth pulls amy away from the group and cuddles her... or the pictures of Jeff doing debbies taxes cuz she's dainty (LOL, Deb I think you are awesome! I'm dainty... will jeff do my taxes??) .... ANYWAY That shows love!

HA... I guess I am rambling... Damn... ;-D

Now you know.. the rest of the story....

ahhhhh paul harvey.... hmm. I'm old :-p

Well there it is... out on the internet for everyone to judge. Not sure THAT was the best idea... things are still a little too raw and new don't ya think? Then again ya gotta pick all the asphalt outta the wound if ya ever want it to heal properly I suppose.

AND I will always be right here for ya baby if ya need anything... and to check your emotional temperature :-D .... I love you and I love your family and I would do anything for any of you.

xoxo

Scary.....

So I finally fall asleep at 2:30ish - I hate the time change ... of course I'm thinking I'm ok, cuz well I took a two hour nap at 8pm (which btw was BRILLIANT) and so I'm gonna be ok.

No, no I'm not.

I'm so tired today that I'm walking into walls and people and tripping over footprints which is enough to make anyone feel super cool but then I've got the doctors heckling me. It's not nice to laugh and point, people!

I had a point to this rambling what was it...

OH yeah! So I wake up from a horrible awful nightmare that was just ridiculous but terrifying (e.g. ben in that clown outfit and jon with tenticles growing out of his neck ha ha I almost wrote testicles hee) and I scott (ha ha) sorry SCOOT across the ben (damnit this is getting perverted cuz I can't type worth a fuck today) BED to find my husband - but husband is no there!! where husband? I crack one very bloodshot eye open to see the computer room lit up and husband obviously in playing. *sigh* fine. I don't care. I'm tired. go back to sleep. 20 minutes of tossing and turning later I march my attitude problem in there to yell at him to go to sleeeeeep and that his clickity clacking is keeping me awake. He tells me that he HAD to track a package and that he needed to find out where it was. I tell him that I don't care what he's doing with his package and that he better stop looking at internet porn and go to bed. HA I told HIM!

*sigh*

Learning new things

I've learned something interesting. Now not life-shattering bone-jarring interesting but mildly -- when it comes to opinions you should really just keep your opinon to yourself - even if someone asks for it because you never know when you are going to say something you consider relatively obvious and offend the living hell out of someone.

That and i've learned that I personally need to not exaggerate. It pisses me off when I say some dumbass thing like "oh I've done it a million times" to have some asshole tell me "oh a million huh? I think you've only done it 9 times" Who fuckin cares? its a number jackass get away from me.

xoxo